Friday, May 11, 2012

Embrace the Drive!

Yesterday was the first day since January that I woke up with the feeling that I have been chasing after for 5 months.  The feeling that I'm ready.  I. AM. READY.

I'm sure most of you know exactly what I am talking about.  That feeling when your mind goes clear of all the clouds of doubt and weakness, and you find your drive.  All the things that were able to hold you back seem to vanish.  I found my drive and I'm embracing it.

Like I mentioned, I have gained some weight since my cruise in January, and never got it back off.  I've been maintaining unhealthy eating habits ever since... and even though I haven't gained any more weight since the cruise, I've been just hovering around the same weight for so long.  I'd go days of dieting, and then a couple days of eating horrible, rinse and repeat.  Every time I'd try to diet, I was never really "in it".  My mind wasn't there.  My drive wasn't there.  All I kept thinking about was all the sweet treats I wanted to eat... Ice cream, M&Ms, just junk!  So because those thoughts were always in my head, my healthy eating would last three days tops before I would plummet back off track.

Well, yesterday was different.  It was so different that I felt like I had to come back here.  I found my spark again!  I'm ready to do what I have to do.  I'm not quite sure where this feeling came from, or what I did to achieve it... but I'm holding onto it and I'm not letting go!  Time to start back where I left off and complete my goals!  I feel like I have more motivation than ever.  I'm getting married next July and we want to start having babies :)  I'm not going to let my weight to be a wrench in the gears of my happiest life moments! I've got this bull by the horns now!

xoxo PrettyT

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Since January...

Hey everyone!  I'm back and ready to fill you in on all that's happened since just before the end of that last weight loss competition.  First off.. I DID NOT WIN!  Despite the fact that this was a family competition, and one would assume that people would not use any despicable means of robbing anyone of an earned win... we had the misfortune of having a scum bag among our group of honest, hard working competitors.

Hope it felt good....
I was already 2% ahead of the person in second place, which was a decent lead with only 2 weeks left in the competition.  I worked my ass off and dropped 5 more pounds before the last weigh in.  I was so excited, as was my boyfriend... there was no way anyone else could have beat me... until we got the weigh-in pictures from my deceitful sister-in-law and her *bites tongue* lovely husband.

He was down over TWENTY POUNDS from two weeks prior.... twenty!  No one loses twenty pounds in two weeks after months of dieting just out of nowhere!  My boyfriend was furious and immediately called his sister and demanded both live video proof and an explaination.  We FaceTimed with them and saw the scale.  Then she precedes to tell us that for two weeks all he ate was one yogurt for breakfast, and one yogurt for dinner.  He literally starved himself to cheat out a win.

Now... don't get me wrong, I know that stuff like this happens during weight-loss competitions.  People will go through all kinds of extremes to win... laxatives, diuretics, wrapping themselves up in plastic and sitting in a sauna... whatever... but you do not expect that family would do something like that to each other!

It caused some intense tension... especially when she tried to defend what he did and said "I don't know why you're mad about it, you should be proud of him and congratulate him!"  That set us off.  How are you supposed to be proud of someone who used such a deceitful tactic to cheat a win away from his FAMILY?!  I don't think I could even do that to a stranger!

Needless to say, we did not let our feelings go unknown... what sucked was now we were all going on a one week cruise with the two of those immoral twits, so it was awkward.  Thankfully there was enough of us to keep it from ruining my time, it was just weird to have such tension.  I didn't even want to look at him.  The fact that he had no shame what-so-ever in what he did just baffled me, and the fact that my boyfriend's sister continued to defend him just stirred the pot.

So anyway, to sum up the rest of what went down, I gained some weight on the cruise, naturally, but I have yet to let it go.  I had a pretty crazy semester at school with my first clinical rotation at the largest hospital in my state so it was hectic.  I haven't gained a lot of weight, but I haven't been watching what I eat or exercising at all as of late.  So now, I'm ready to get going!  I'm not back on YouTube yet, but I will be as soon as I'm done with finals week over here!  I'm super excited to get back in action!

So tell me your opinion, do you think it was right for him to do what he did to win the competition?  Why or why not?  Let me know your opinion in a comment!

xoxo Pretty T